In a perfect world...

and when I think that I can't do this, you promise me that I'll get through it

2005-08-25T17:56:54Z

I haven't updated this thing in like a month, so here's a few things I guess.
Summer was pretty fun. I miss everyone though, but it's not like I'll be seeing them because my schedual=horrible {russo, caldwell, fluegge, stuehmer, carr, davis-let me know}.
Yesterday me and Emily went to the school and then went shopping and got our hair cut. I like mine, it's different than what I'm used to though I guess. Most definitely re doing my highlights this weekend.

Good enough I guess, I'll update more when school starts.
Oh, and I got a myspace. Add me. <3 http://www.myspace.com/14932117

"and you haven't a clue as to how perfect you are."

2005-07-28T02:34:44Z

It's been forever because I haven't been home for more than a couple of hours in forever. So update time I guess.
I've pretty much been at Amy's ever since she got home just hanging out and stuff. Then Saturday morning at like 9 I left to go up north with her. Got food on the way and got to her cottage at like 1. Went to sleep until like 4 when we got there and then we all went into town to go grocery shopping and rent movies. Came home and ate and watched our movies and stuff. Sunday we woke up and went into Travers City and went shopping for a while. Got 2 shirts and a pair of pants. Got back and went on the paddle boat and later had a bonfire and watched the rest of our movies. Monday we went into town again for a little and then came back and layed out and went on the paddle boat again. Just hung out for the rest of the day. Tuesday we went to Travers City again to shop for pretty much the whole day. Then we went out to eat. Got back, had a bonfire and then went to sleep. Today was really cold so we just hung out there, watched movies and stuff. Then we had dinner and cake and ice cream because it's Amy's mom's birthday. Then around 7 me and Amy's dad left and I got home a little bit ago. I'm glad to be back, I missed it here. <3

& if this means anything at all, I won't let you leave me anymore

2005-07-14T23:36:41Z

This week has been really fun.
Sunday Emily called me and since it had been forever I went over to her house for a little. Then I think we went shopping for her trip and then we went to the track to run.
Monday I woke up, layed out, and then Emily called me. I went over there and then like a half hour later Gina and Dana came and picked us up and we went to Dana's to swim. We went swimming forever and walked around and stuff. Then they brought me and Emily home around 7. Came here and then later went to the track to run.
Tuesday I woke up early to say goodbye, and then went back to sleep until like 1. Woke up and called Emily. She came over and then around 5 we went to the mall and later to the movies. Came home and she slept over.
Wednesday we woke up and Emily left. Later she called me and told me she got hurt, so I went over there. Turns out she broke her arm. I came home while she went to the doctors and then later I went to Amy's. She's finally home. :) Spent the night there.
Me and Amy didn't do anything really today. I came home earlier and then Emily called me. She came over to show me her cast and to say goodbye since she's leaving forever tomorrow. :\ <3

"It's so distracting, always thinking of you."

2005-07-10T00:29:39Z

Time for an update, even if I don't remember much.
I can remember going to the Mt. Clemens fireworks with Emily. We walked forever just to find ice cream, never found it so we walked back. Found my parents and they told us where it really was. Got that and on the way ran into a couple people. Walking back, Arianna and Kaitlin found us so we hung out with them. Watched the fireworks then left.
One night I went to the movies with Emily. Saw House Of Wax. It was scary, but good.
Sometime during the week after that drivers training ended, which is amazing because now I can sleep.
Yesterday I finally went and got my permit which meant I was driving to Amber's today. Went and hung out with her around 3. We had fun, I missed her. Came home around 8, and now I'm here really tired.

More later this week or something.

& right when you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long.

2005-06-29T00:21:25Z

The last time I updated was like a week ago, and I don't remember what I did last week except for on Friday. Me and Emily had drivers training until 10 and then we went to Amy's for the day to hang out with everyone because Amy was leaving on Saturday for a long time. Saturday me and Emily had to go to the driving range to drive from 4-7. It was pretty much hot and boring, that's all. Sunday I didn't feel good, Monday and today I had to drive from 6-8 in the morning and then had drivers training from 8-10. Came home and slept both days. Today we got temporary permits, so my parents let me drive earlier. Tomorrow is my last day of driving from 6-8, which is good because I'm too tired. Actually, drivers training is getting close to being over. :) <3

And these are the days when I'm wishing I was with you...

2005-06-21T01:56:57Z

So summer has been a lot of fun so far, more fun than I thought it was going to be. Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and today I went to Amy's because I love it there and it's like my second home. I started drivers training today with Emily. What a joke, the first day and I'm already sick of it. But I guess we're driving like real soon, so that's cool. I can see it taking up what feels like my whole life, since it's early early early in the morning and sometimes we might have to drive at 6 in the morning. Yeah, that should be fun. I'll probably be going to Amy's a lot the rest of this week too, since she's leaving for up north soon and will be gone forever and since my mom's not working this week which=ride over there. I love the summer so far. <3<3<3

"Let me know if I need to reassure you,
my life would be purposeless without you."

It just doesn't make sense if you're not here with me.

2005-06-12T23:35:15Z

One more week of school=great because I'm sick of work, =not so great because I'm gonna miss everyone. Trying to make the best of our last couple weeks, except that doesn't seem to work with everyone. I'm just glad most things are back to normal. <3
This weekend I pretty much spent with Emily. I can't remember what I did Friday, but I know I was really tired and went to sleep pretty early that night. Saturday I woke up at like 930 and at 1030 I called Emily so we could go swimming. Went for a few and then went shopping. Got some new clothes. :) Went to her house for a few and then back here. Hung out and then she left. Called her back like a half hour later to come over for pizza. She came back, we ate, and just hung out. She left a little later and I didn't do anything until around 1130 when I couldn't stay awake anymore and I went to sleep. Today I woke up early again and went swimming with Emily. After that got boring we left and I came home, did some of my bio, went to the store with my mom and cleaned my room. & that was my last weekend of the school year. :)

I've been here for too long to just walk away.

2005-06-07T00:00:21Z

Update time I guess.

Last week was once again forever long, not to mention a whole bunch of other confusing things. The last couple weeks of school are always the worst though and the reviews for finals are killing me. I'm more than ready for summer vacation.

I basically spent all of the weekend at my second home with Amy. :) Went home with her on Friday and we had people over to hang out. Spent the night there and then did nothing Saturday. I left at 10 that night. Came home and Sunday I went back to her house. Layed out all day.

Today was ok. School was weird and then I came home did nothing. Did my homework and some of my reviews, then got mad and stopped. 2 more weeks. Can't wait. <3<3<3

This is the first day of my life. I'm glad I didn't die before I met you.

2005-05-29T21:28:56Z

This past week was forever. Friday I came home, went to Emily's with Salina and hung out there until like 8. Then we went bathing suit shopping. Got pizza and then went back to her house. When it got dark we had a fire and then I left at like 1030. Was really tired so I went right to sleep. Saturday I woke up at 12 and then got ready. Went and got a hair cut then came home and got Emily to go shopping. We were gone forever, got McDonalds then called Salina. Met her halfway and went to the store. Went back to Emily's for a few, then I walked home and fell asleep watching movies. Today I woke up, called Emily and Salina and went shopping with them. Got new clothes and stuff and then came back home. No school tomorrow, don't know what's going on. <3 <3 <3

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting...

2005-05-22T02:46:01Z

Long week. Monday my finger hurt real bad so I left school in third hour. Went to Taco Bell and then came home and slept for a little. Emily and Salina came over once school got out and then they left and I did homework and stuff. Tuesday was a half day and me and Emily went over Salina's house after school. Then my mom called and told me I had a doctor's appointment for my finger so I went home. Went to the doctor's for what seemed like forever and they fixed my finger and gave me a shot. Came home, went driving and did homework and stuff. Wednesday and Thursday I hung out with Emily and Salina. Friday I came home, walked to 711 with Emily and then Amy came and picked me up to go back to her house for the night, we had fun. Today we woke up and just hung out until like 12 when I left. Came home, went driving, helped outside and then got ready and called Emily and Salina. I walked over there and then we went tanning. Walked back and then to the track to run. Walked to Emily's and sat outside by the fire. They just walked me home a few minutes ago and now I'm boreddddd.

If everything could ever feel this real forever.♥

Cause even when the sky is falling down, I know I have you and that's all I need.

2005-05-15T23:52:22Z

So I don't update this thing much anymore, which means I can't really remember anything since last time. I've been hanging out with Emily and Salina a lot though. Friday I came home and slept then Emily called and woke me up and me, her, and Salina walked to 711 and then back to Emily's. Hung out there for a while then went to the store and then to Salina's house. Me and Emily left at like 10 and then I came home. Saturday I woke up, got ready and then my parents took me driving at the cemetary because I can't kill anyone there. I did good though, and it was easy. Then I came home and later went to Emily's again with Salina. Walked to 711 and stuff...the usual. Came home and got McDonald's then stayed online for a while. Today I woke up, cleaned forever, then got ready. Went driving again, but this time I was better. :) Came home and slammed my finger in the car door, and it kills. Fell asleep for a little then woke up, ate dinner, and did my homework.

"I'm never going to stop
believing in you and me.
I've been here for too long
to just walk away."

"And she loves, but she's scared to use it."

2005-05-08T21:43:15Z

I don't remember this past week. Probably hung out with Emily and Salina though. Friday I came home and slept. Then didn't do anything. Saturday I woke up, got ready, and my mom took me to get my cd. It's amazing. :) Came home, went outside then came back in to start my English essay. That took forever and I was getting sick of doing it so I called Emily. Salina was over her house so I met them half way and we walked to 7-11. Then we went back to Emily's and sat outside for a while. I went home around 930 to finish my essay. Finally finished that at like 1230. Stayed online for a few and then went to sleep. Today I woke up, did some of my homework and then got ready. Me and my parents left around 2:30 to go meet the rest of my family for dinner. It was fun. Now I'm here with math left to do.

Oh yeah, new s/n- wereonly x liars

I lost myself in your eyes again,
this isnt the first or last time...
and you haven't a clue as to how perfect you are.

& it's nice to know that we don't have to be perfect. <3

2005-05-02T02:33:00Z

Friday I came home from school, then Emily came over a little bit later. We met Salina half way and walked to the store to get hair dye. Walked back to Salina's and called Gina. She came over and her and Salina highlighted mine and Emily's hair. I like mine a lot, but whether or not anyone will be able to tell a difference, I don't know. Then we went to Taco Bell and later all of us stayed the night at Gina's.
Saturday I came home and got ready and then I picked Emily and Salina up and we went to the library forever. Finished a bunch of homework that we needed to finish. Then we came back to my house, and then went outside for a while. Then I came home, cleaned my room and did more of my bio project until I got tired and went to sleep.
Today I slept in and layed around doing nothing, and I loved it. :)

It's not that we don't know, its just that we don't care.

2005-04-29T02:35:23Z

It's been a few days. I don't remember much. Except...
Friday night I went to Kaitlin's with everyone and hung out there. After I went home with Amy for the night.
Saturday we watched movies until I went home around 5. Then I got ready and went to Salina's with Emily and Gina. Watched a movie and came home.
I don't think I did anything Sunday, and I don't remember what I did this week. Except...
Today was a half day. I came home and slept until 330. Then Emily and Billy came over. Surprised me. So we walked to 711 and on the way back we caught a bunny. But now it's set free. After we caught the bunny we walked to Emily's house. Then to Salina's, but she was sleeping. So we went to Gina's. Then left and went back to Salina's. This time we woke her up. Stayed there for a while and then I came home. Studied for my test and stuff. Hopfully highlighting my hair tomorrow with Emily. :)

You're the words that come out easy, the closest thing to perfect.

2005-04-21T01:44:42Z

Trying to remember as much as possible...my week so far--
Monday I came home from school and then walked with Emily to get Salina. We walked back to Emily's house and sat outside for a while, attempting to get a tan. Went inside and watched tv and I fell asleep. When I woke up we walked to Dairy Queen. Walked back to Salina's after that and sat outside there for a while. Then we rode the moped and bikes to Michelle's house to give her back her bike. Left there and took Salina home, then Emily took me home. I did homework until like 10 and couldn't fall asleep that night so was up until like 12.
On Tuesday school was easy. Walked 6 laps around the track talking with Emily and Kayley in Gym. It was hot, but fun. Came home after school and then went over Emily's with Gina and Salina. It was so nice outside, so we attempted that whole tanning thing again. Walked to Salina's later and Gina left. Then me and Emily left. I came home and did my homework, went to sleep pretty early.
Today I wasn't having the best day and I was really tired so I came home and slept until 430. Woke up, did my homework, ate dinner, and watched a movie. What a fun day.

I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now.

2005-04-17T20:39:06Z

Thursday I came home from school and then walked over to Emily's. We walked to Michelle's later, which took forever. When we got there we ended up hanging out for a couple hours. Then we walked back and I came home and did my homework and studied for my Global test.
Friday started off good & got worse as the day went on. I got all A's on my report card though. :) I came home and did nothing except be online all day.
Saturday I woke up early and later my mom took me shopping. Got new clothes and stuff and then came back home. Called Emily, and she was with Salina so I went over there. We walked to Gina's house and just hungout there for the rest of the day. Got to meet Dana. She's pretty cool. :) Came home at like 10 and went to sleep around 12.
Today I got up early again. :\ Got ready and then went to a couple stores with my mom. Got new shoes. Came back home and watched a movie. I'm really tired and have a English test tomorrow that I should probably study for.

Throughout all of this confusion, I hope I somehow get to you.

2005-04-14T01:42:42Z

I don't remember Monday during school much, except that we went back to normal gym, which is always good. I came home and went to Emily's with Salina though, and later we went to the library real quick. Came home and did my homework, went online, went to sleep a little after 11.
Tuesday was good at school, except I didn't feel good at all. I came home and slept from like 3 until 5 and then did my homework, went online, and went to sleep around 930. :)
Today I feel so much better. School was ok, I had 3 hours of homework though. Ate ice cream in 4th and gym was really fun today. We continued bowling, and me, Kaitlin and Kayley are amazing and we definitely won. :) Got to hear the "momma" voice all hour. That's always good. ;) <3 Came home from school and did homework from 330 until 630. Then I went to the mall with my mom. Got new clothes and stuff, it was fun.

You can't change the way you feel, I could never do that.
But you can't tell me this ain't real, cause this is real.

Tell me I'm right to think that there could be nothing better.

2005-04-10T21:39:32Z

I had a good day in school on Friday. I came home and slept for a little and then woke up and we got pizza. I ate that and then called Emily and she was hanging out with Salina, so I went over there for a few. We played outside and then went in later. Emily cut my hair and then Salina cut her's. :) It was fun. Me and Salina left at 930 and I came home, went online, and then went to sleep.
Saturday I woke up and got ready. Went over to Emily's around 230 and hung out there with her for a while. Around 330 we walked to 711 and then went back to her house to wait for Gina and Rachel to pick us up. They came around 430 and we left to go to the show. Met up with a bunch of people there. The bands did really good, but I liked Matt's the best. They were awesome. After the third band we sat outside for a few and then Rachel's mom came and got us around 9. Me, Emily and Gina all went to Gina's house and then they brought me home at 10. Watched tv, went online, and then went to sleep. I was so tired.
Today I really didn't do anything. I did my homework and showered earlier, and went to Taco Bell just a little bit ago.

"You and I both know we can't screw this one up..."

2005-04-08T00:34:59Z

Tuesday I came home from school and then later on went to Emily's. We walked to Salina's and then to Gina's. We stayed there for a little and then walked to 711. Then we came back to my house until we went to Emily's. We all stayed there until like 8. I had no homework that day, it was fun.
Wednesday was a really good day at school. I came home and then walked over to Emily's. Then we called Salina and Michelle and they came over too. We all walked to Dairy Queen and then I went home. I did my homework and then my mom took me shopping. Got new clothes. Came home and then went online and stuff until I went to sleep.
Today was another good day and I didn't have like any homework. I went home with Amy after school. We got there and then around 430 went to the baseball game and met Kaitlin up there. That was really fun, and we talked to the manager most of the time. ;) Those kids make me laugh. <3333 We left around 6 and then went back to Amy's and then my mom came and got me. Went to Arby's with her and then came home and did my homework and stuff.

But I always take with me those good moments
that we spend without knowing how lucky we are.

"If this isn't love, this is the closest I've ever been."

2005-04-05T01:18:36Z

I didn't do much of anything the last couple days of break. Went to the movies on Friday, at least I think it was Friday. Have no idea what I did Saturday unless that was the day I went to the movies, and on Sunday I did homework and watched lifetime movies with my mom...and now break's over.

Back to school today. Wasn't all that bad actually because I missed a lot of people. Did get tons of homework though, which I didn't miss over break. Came home after school and then met Emily half way to walk to 711. Went there and then came home again. Talked to Emily and decided to go back over there. We walked and got Gina and Salina and then walked back to Emily's house. It was nice outside today so we played basketball and rode the moped and stuff. I came home around 630 and did my homework forever, which didn't go very well. Really tired now, and not looking forward to tomorrow. :\

Now I don't know where I am
and I don't know where I've been
but I know where I want to go
and so I thought I'd let you know
that these things take forever
and that I especially am slow
but I realize that I need you...<3333

"No need for reminding...you're still all that matters to me."

2005-03-31T23:58:08Z

Monday I didn't do anything at all.
Tuesday I woke up and cleaned the house, then called Emily. We walked to the store and then went back to her house. Ate Taco Bell and then went outside for a little bit. I left around 7 and came home, took a shower and then stayed online for a while.
Wednesday I woke up and got ready then called Emily again. Walked to the store and then came back here. My mom brought us home McDonald's and then we walked to Michelle's. Misty was there and we walked her home. Michelle's mom picked us up and took me and Emily home. Later I went to Emily's for a little bit and then we went to Gina's. Rented movies and watched those. Emily's dad picked us up around 12 and then me and Emily went back to her house for the night.
Woke up today and Emily got ready. Came to my house and I got ready and then my mom took us to the mall. She picked us back up later and then we went to McDonald's. Came back here for a little bit and then Emily left.

"...& it's times like these when I miss you most."

2005-03-27T23:32:02Z

Thursday was our last day of school before break started. Had a good day at school and then came home and did nothing.
Friday I woke up and did nothing until like 5. Then me and Emily and Salina went to Michelle's to sleep over. Had fun with them, and went to sleep at like 4.
Saturday was my birthday. Woke up at Michelle's and left later around 1. Came home and got ready. Emily came over and then we went to Subway. Came back here and waited for Amy. She came and then we went to the store. On the way back we saw my mom and then went and got pizza. Came back here and ate and watched tv and stuff. Emily left at like 7 and Amy left at 11. I went to sleep at like 1.
Today I woke up and spent like 2 hours cleaning my room, then I got ready. My family came over around 4 for Easter and my birthday. :)

Cause in the end it's always the same...you're still gone.

2005-03-23T23:19:08Z

Ended up going to school on Monday. Came home for a little after and then went to the doctors. I was there for like 3 hours and on the way home got Taco Bell. Came home and did a lot of homework. Tuesday I went home with Amy after school. We went to the library to get our books for English. My mom picked us up and we took Amy home. I came home and did my homework and went online and stuff. Today Amy came home with me after school until like 5. Still have homework and I need to go back to the library tonight for the right book for English.

Between smiles and regrets : "Don't say it's over."

2005-03-20T19:19:15Z

Friday was a full day of school. Didn't do much of anything. Came home until like 6 and then went to the mall with Rachel. Came back home at like 9 and went online for a while. Went to sleep at like 130. Saturday I woke up and did nothing for most of the day. Got ready and at like 730 I went to Kaitlin's. Hung out with everyone there and watched a movie. Left at 1030 and came back home. Back online until like 2, ended up going to sleep at 4. Woke up this morning and did nothing. Don't think I'm going to school tomorrow, Tuesday should be fun. :\

Sometimes I wish that we could be so much closer than this,
But I won't look up when you walk away.

I pulled myself out of the day that we ever had to say goodbye...

2005-03-16T22:47:22Z

I'll try to remember what I did this past week, starting with Saturday...
Stayed the night at Amy's that night. Got pizza and stuff, just hung out with her. Sunday I came home kinda early so she could go to this party she had to go to. Cleaned, did my homework and talked online. Monday was a normal day at school, but Tuesday was a late start day. Went home with Amy after school and then my mom came and picked me up. Came home for a little bit and then went back to Amy's and stayed the night there. We woke up this morning and got ready, then went to school. Today was so easy, made cinnamon rolls, watched a movie, and didn't swim. Went back to Amy's house after school and then to the store. Went back and hung out with her for a little and then my mom picked me up. Still have lots of math homework to do. :( Another late start tomorrow though. :)

They'll say it's not worth it...
So I'll tell everyone how much this means to me.